What on earth did I get myself into?

It all depends on who you ask, and how you interpret the situation. Sometimes the answer is blowing in the wind.

I had such a moment a few weeks ago on some level, and at first my only thought was how do I untangle myself, but the more I watched and waited for the punchline, the punchline never came. Where I was on some level was surprisingly where I was meant to be. It really started to work for me, and much to my complete surprise, really lifted my spirits.

Now upon realising that I was in a good place, the usual control agents have done just about everything to try to change or destroy that.

This week has been a challenge, but I am trying to find that peace and happy I knew just a few short weeks ago.

I find that when you are in the right place, you can not let specific negative elements allow you to be brought low.

I think the question of what on earth did I get myself into at times has to be answered in spirit for truth, but in flesh for accuracy, cause otherwise it’s just too easy to get the lines of communications mixed up, or cluttered with a lot of inaccurate information.

I think targets ask this question a lot, but much like the disinformation that is out there about us, some information can only be clarified by going to or getting at the source.

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Still pretty happy

I am sorry that I have not updated this sooner. I pretty private person, but I think sharing bit’s and pieces here and there would not be too amiss.

The last couple of years kept me on the outside of a part of my life I really wanted to be in on. I felt excluded and I hated that, it made me feel like I was not a part of the equation, just a passive viewer, if even that. It’s like being semi-remote viewer on your own life, always on the outside, wondering what is going on. Feeling only valued for one purpose and not much else. I have been there and I hated it.

What I hate even more would be to unintentionally make anyone feel that way, cause that would not be the case. People have value and that’s how I feel.

Lately I have been trying to stay out of my spiritual side to a degree, again not cause I want to be, because I am happier than I have been in a really long time, but it’s cause I realise like I said before, spirit is just not as divisable as I use to think, and maybe that is because I was on the outside looking in so much.

I am failing miserable at times, cause being happy is contagious and who does not like to be happy? Anyways I find myself happy, smiling, and that flows through, wither I want it to or not. I feel at peace, balanced, and just hormonic.

I feel joy, and that’s a good thing. On a spiritual level, everything is fine, and in a legitimate place “to the best of my knowledge.” My internal dialouge seems to be fine, I do find that I am picking up a bit of a “Hick Twang” from somewhere, when I tune into my internal dialouge it’s there, and it cracks me up, wonder where that could be coming from? 🙂

Anyways, I think that’s as much appropriate sharing on this side that I can do. I am happy in spirit, and it shines through into this realm.

Affirmation

This is a little affirmation. It’s just a quick follow up to the I Am Happy post.

I want to stay happy. For me this means on a spiritual level staying as far away as I can from those things that made me unhappy. It means not going back to the darkness, and staying in the light.

I like breathing in air. I like when an experience is right the fact that it just flows. For me the last few years really shook my beliefs in how things worked when they were right, how things flowed. The reason being that in some spiritual aspect, I was not in a good place, where things flowed, where things worked. I just was not happy.

The brief glimpse of happy that I had restored my faith in that, brought air back into my lungs, and I don’t ever willingly or unwilling want to be dragged back into that place. It was an unappreciated place, that did not love or care for me, it was a place that brought me unhappiness.

I feel the flow that I had not felt for awhile, and I don’t want anything to do with the place where I was. I see now that when you are around the right situations, people, that love you, care for you, nurture you, it makes all the difference, and it’s as clear as a bell.

There is no confusion, psychological manipulation, no game, just a free flow, and that is where I am going to be. I am moving forward. I think the glimpse of what a happy stable, well cared for spirit, has been an inspiration for me.

It’s restored my faith in a lot of things. I find now that I am able to distance myself from things and people that are not good for me on a physical plane. I still wish I had more control of distancing, or permanently removing unwanted elements, on a spiritual level, but I think that will come in time.

Being happy, even if it’s for a moment makes such a difference. I feel back in my game, so this is just a quick affirmation of that.

The old game, that was played for the last few years stop here. I am moving forward, I am distancing myself from the last few years of things that did not work for me in spirit, I want nothing to do with that path, it was not a well path, and it is not something that I want.

I have found new paths, that have been kind, warm, welcoming, and those paths, or similar are where I will be in spirit, and if I can find similar on this plane, I might just do the same.