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Become the hero

I read a post by a person today who is having trouble adjusting to change. I really felt for this person, they really felt that the world was changing and that there was nothing left, it was heartbreaking to read the post, because I believe the person genuinely felt this way.

Change can be hard, it can be life changing, but it can be what we make it. The person wanted to know where the hero was, who was coming to save the day. What I have learnt from my Gang Stalking experience is that when there is no hero, you become the hero, you can’t control everything, God I wish we could, but you take control of what you can, and you encourage others to do the same.

The first and normal reaction to change is to hate it with a passion, to want to fight against it, to rail against it, to cry out and to mourn for what was. That is a natural and very human reaction to have, but once we have that reaction we can and must start to make what we can of our new circumstances. I can be very hard, it can almost be heartbreaking.

My life was really good, I live a boring but on track life. I had played life carefully, I had kept good credit and had a great relationship with my cc company. Platinum card while still very young, good jobs, etc. All the stupid material things they teach you to work and strive for. Then this crazy Gang Stalking stuff happened and my life changed. My expectations have not changed, but I had to adapt, I am still adapting. The things that so easily should have been, currently are not. Life is not the way that I want it to be, but I can’t afford to give up. I can’t let it get me down and I can’t afford to grow hateful, resentful, or give up on the life that I still have. I can’t afford to let it make me stop living.

Change for many others can happen in other ways, the death of a loved one, divorce, moving, changes in society, change in what’s happening with the country, etc. Change can make you feel scared, depressed, and many don’t know what to do about it, and it can overcome you if you let it, but you can’t let it do that. You have to fight back. You first have to get a grip on yourself, the world is not ending just yet. It might feel like it, but it’s not.

Then come to terms, mourn, get angry, cry if you have to, take the time you need to deal, but you also still have to find a way to function. I went through a lot of this with the Gang Stalking stuff, and it was horrible, because while I see this as horrible, many are just going right along with it, many like this, but I don’t want the world to be like this, I don’t want to live in a society of informants, but I do. Most days I would love to be just off on an Island, just me, no crazy Informants burning, tracking me, no crazy society, but that is not happening right now, so I have to find ways to make of it what I can. I have to find ways to survive. It can be very heartbreaking, but it can also be very character building.

Change in part is what you make of it, and how you react to it. The other thing is if you are feeling this way change that is happening in your life, the changes are good others feel the same way, and it might be good even healthy to converse or socialize with others who feel the same way. It can be cathartic, and it can also help you find ways to cope together. Chance can be heartbreaking, but never lose site of your goals, and your dreams, never lose site of hope. It’s one of the most important things that I have learnt from my experience.

Kyle Reese might not show up to save you in your hour of need, but then you just become the hero in part two and save others. Once you get a hold of yourself, become the hero for others. By helping others and doing something for others, and taking an active stance, that is one good way to start to heal and make the best of what you can.

(Youtube.com user Offspring1014 Video Hero.)
When there is no hero, you become the hero. Sword in hand, you pick yourself right up off the ground, and you rise from the ashes of oppression, whatever that may be, and you become the hero.

May 29, 2009 Posted by | future, Gang Stalking, Gangstalking | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Leashing the snitch 2

https://gangstalking.wordpress.com/2009/05/28/leashing-the-snitch/

Why we must continue to document our harassment.

See I get bored day in day out writing down everything that has happened and I forget that by documenting my experiences of torture, the day in day out harassment’s it’s the only way other targets and in fact the world will begin to understand what we are doing through. I get tired of it, because how many times can I write that the I have blisters on the back of my head and face because they are electronically torturing me, and it’s making my skin blister and it’s burning me? It’s become such a daily and common event for me, that I don’t even write about it anymore, but that’s not correct, because how are others ever to understand what we are going through if we don’t let them know?

I also think that because I have not been sharing what was happening, it’s caused me to be a bit more hateful, because I am keeping it in and not letting it out, so I am going to work on that. Before this started happening, I have always been a very private person and had things gone according to plan it would have continued that way, but things don’t always go according to plan.

Last week I had the building worker enter my apartment while I was home. He claimed he thought it was an emergency, but he has done this one other time before. The first time I just left it alone and pretty much just gave him unpleasant stares whenever I saw him. This time however I wrote him up. If I as a target keep letting them get away with stuff, they will think it’s ok to keep doing it. You have to snap them back to a sense of reality, and the reality is, this is not ok. I also blame myself however, because for most of the year I had just been giving him unpleasant stares due to the first incident which I mostly let go, but on a personal level I just let him know it was not ok, and then recently I decided to be civil, that was a mistake. Well the moment I decided to be civil, the building worker used that to do the bidding of his informant buddies and enter my apartment while I was home, claiming he thought there was an emergency. There is an emergency, the country has been taken over, by a bunch of informants, but you are too stupid to see why that’s a problem.

See what they normally do when my heartrate is not detectable is they will call my phone. I solved that problem. The other thing they use to do is have a stranger knock at the door and make up some dumb excuse as to why they were knocking, well I stopped checking and this stopped working, so he is the only resource left to stupid informants. They used a resource stupider than themselves.

What happens is that the losers who are monitoring me, lose track of my heart rate and can’t detect where I am in my apartment. I have spent months learning how to find ways to make it hard for me to be detected. Most times if they can’t detect where I am in my apartment or if I am there, it’s harder for them to figure out where to burn my skin. Eg. Whatever they are using is mobile and I believe some have hand held items, but at other times I have distinctly heard something mechanical being wheeled from room to room. I suspect at those times, they could well be using a portable X-ray machine or something similar. I suspect at other time they are using a radar flashlight, someone told me once that it might be a radar gun, but I think it could be this a radar flashlight. They are cheap, portable and the informants could have access to them.

http://mae.pennnet.com/articles/article_display.cfm?Section=ARCHI&C=News&ARTICLE_ID=72290&KEYWORDS=radar&p=32

http://gtresearchnews.gatech.edu/newsrelease/RADARFLASH.html

[img]http://gtresearchnews.gatech.edu/images/radar1s.jpg[/img]

[quote]
A prototype device called the RADAR Flashlight, developed at the Georgia Tech Research Institute (GTRI), can detect a humans presence through doors and walls up to 8 inches thick. The device uses a narrow 16-degree radar beam and specialized signal processor to discern respiration and/or movement up to three meters behind a wall. The device can penetrate even heavy clothing to detect respiration and movements of as little as a few millimeters.
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What they use detects movement and pulse or heartrates. The little idiots or whoever is on shift in the apartment below me, (including the creepy neighbour) using whatever they are using to detect movement, heatrate, etc. It let’s them know where I am in my apartment. The more movement there is, the better reading they can get. I had a video from Youtube showing something similar, but the video is no longer on Youtube, just like many other good videos. If I lie perfectly still or avoid my pulse points touching any surfaces, they don’t get a reading, and then you notice that they start to bang on the walls, or other items below, to cause vibrations above, eg. Some time the noise might cause an accellerated heart or pulse rate so that they can get a reading. If this fails, they often use something else that causes vibrations in my apartment, again designed to do what their idiotic banging and kicking on the walls can not do. For the banging and kicking on the walls, record and complain, that stops this problem. I have learnt how to overcome much of this, not 100% but enough to annoy the more stupid ones. It’s funny, when I think of learning how to overcome this stuff, I always remember that scene in terminator 1, where kyle is like, [quote]
                     
                      The H-K’s use infra-red so you
                      still have to watch out.
                      But they’re not too bright.
                      John taught us ways to dust them
                      them. [/quote]

In every period of turmoil, people have to find interesting ways to survive. Everytime I hear one of those dumb creatures banging on the walls cause they can’t get a heart rate, pulse or movement, I think of this scene. They are not too bright.

I go through this day in day out. Whenever I am employed and working at a job, just to be spiteful, they use whatever it is that causes vibrations at full blast. It’s like being on a construction site, or being shaken all night by a jack hammer. If you don’t find ways to limit the effects you get no sleep, or body aches, which makes it harder and harder to get up and function for the eight hours that a job requires, and gives you a good chance of getting fired if you don’t show up, because you got no sleep. I have found ways to limit the effects, but when it’s on full blast not completely. I have tested it out when it’s on full blast and I go into the hallway, the vibrations can be felt outside of my apartment, so I am sure if I had normal neighbours and not informants around me, they would also be complaining about it. People are just willing to go along with just about anything as long as they convince themselves that it’s for the greater good. How many times in history have we heard that before? Or how many times have we heard, I was just following orders? The Nazi’s used that one a lot. Anyways after reading the other targeted individual blogs recently, I realise that we have to keep sharing our stories and letting the world know what is happening to us. I try not to share the trivial incidents, but with Gang Stalking, it is the trivial day in and day out incidents that make the difference. It’s the accumulation of those incidents that help to paint the bigger picture.

What I realised about other events in history such as what they were doing in Russia with dissidents is that they lied about it, and life in the Soviet Union continued just the same, it was the story after story of the same thing that finally brought the truth to light, so I guess we have to keep bothering the ACLU, or whatever organization in your country that handles these complaints. We need to keep filing reports.

I don’t know if I should waste the time with a police report, but whet if this neighbour is someone who has a history of this, and by doing nothing I put someone else in danger, again keep in mind since they are twisted, he might have been just trying to vandalize my signs again, but there is no way to know for sure. Seriously what would spiderman do? Yes I know he is a comic book character, but don’t we learn from these characters in our darkest moments, and other things around us? Anyways I was thinking of the time he got ripped off for the wrestling match and he decided to not stop the crook who eventually shot his uncle Ben. I always want to do the right thing. Like I said I believe in being a good neighbour, look out for each other, and if it does mean getting others involved I am not against doing that if it’s truly required. At the same time, I deeply believe that you never have to be a part of an informant program to do so.

If I do file a report, I know to type it up and not do it over the phone. As I explained a couple of years ago after two attempts to get my Gang Stalking report filed in person failed, I decided to make my report over the phone. I had researched all about the informant force, and spoken to other officers who even told me some information about how the program worked etc. I gave them some details they gave me details etc. Either way I was well versed and when I filed my report I was very clear about what was ongoing with the harassment. I got a copy of the report via Freedom of Information Act, she had twisted just about everything I said and in the report, she wrote community services might need to get involved. Some of these cops are corrupt. So I immediately tried to get this fixed over the phone, no can do. So I wrote up my own report and requested they change the parts where she had deliberately twisted what I said, or flat out lied. I dropped off report after report. All were lost. I walked into a station and requested the officer change it on the computer, he said he could not do that, but would note that I was not emotionally disturbed or anything like that. Great what good does that do? I finally found out what the process was for disputing incorrect information in a police report was, I went through the process of opening a complaint, and sending in my report to get the correction made, and in the long run they did not change the report. It’s still the same as it was. During the course of this, I found out the officer that had filed the report had taken some time off, etc. See some cops are still good, but there are enough that are corrupt, so that you have to be careful. It’s a balance.

Either way, it’s renewed my belief that we have to keep up what we have been doing, getting our stories told and heard. I don’t mean some of the fake stuff that informants are putting onto Youtube to make us look crazy, but testimony of real targets. The sad part is many real targets do get turned into informants. Either way, I guess the lesson is, keep sharing as best as we can, keep annoying the ACLU, Amnesty, keep posting in the forums, getting the blogs up, and getting our stories told. I still think for the most part, keep some information private. One target who use to post her information online posted her address, and as I pointed out, some people in one forum were discussing her in a very unflattering manner. She also stopped posting to Youtube about a year ago, and I don’t know what happened to her. There are a lot of crazy people in the world, and even outside of the informants that would not hesitate to harm targets, so be aware. Do what makes you comfortable, but I guess we have to keep trying no matter what we decide.

May 29, 2009 Posted by | Citizen Informants, Civilian Spies, Conspiracy, control, Controlled society, Gang Stalking, Gangstalking, harassment, Informants, Targeted Individual | , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

America does not torture?

http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/worldnews/northamerica/usa/5395830/Abu-Ghraib-abuse-photos-show-rape.html

[quote]Abu Ghraib abuse photos ‘show rape’
Photographs of alleged prisoner abuse which Barack Obama is attempting to censor include images of apparent rape and sexual abuse, it has emerged.
 
At least one picture shows an American soldier apparently raping a female prisoner while another is said to show a male translator raping a male detainee.[/quote]
This article is very important. The reason it’s important is in part because it shows what happened in Abu Ghraid and in part confirms what many of already knew about the allegations of rape. There have been allegations of rape for men, women, and children. Some sites a few years back showed video of rapes, though some videos may have been false, many others are believed to have been real. This has been a disgusting and disgraceful time in American history and it’s a time I am sure many would like to forget and sweep under the rug, but if you do that, doesn’t that make you just as monstrous as Germany when they tried to cover up a lot of the Atrocities after WWII? They lied about a lot of what had happened and tried to cover it up.

I watched Obama stand before a group of Congress and declare that America does not torture.

http://www.alertnet.org/thenews/newsdesk/N24444553.htm

[quote]
“Living our values doesn’t make us weaker, it makes us safer and it makes us stronger. And that is why I can stand here tonight and say without exception or equivocation that the United States of America does not torture,” Obama said.
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8r23oHpgMJg

I watched them stand up and clap in regards to this speech. I think most people like and respect Obama, but to say that just hit me. When I saw the speech I was thinking does he mean right this moment as he is saying it? Does he mean they have never tortured? I couldn’t help but think about all the Targeted Individuals men, women and children that were getting burnt in their homes on a daily basis. Who are being tortured in America and other nations. I could not help but think about what I knew about the prison Camps Abu Ghraid and Guantanamo Bay. About the pictures I had seen and some of the things that had gone on their, but here was this President, someone who America listens to and I think trusts, saying that America does not torture. How do you reconcile that? I know most countries would rather keep their dark deeds hidden, it’s the nature of the beast. It took many years for them to even admit to and then finally apologize for other dark times in American history such as the Tuskegee experiments that they conducted on Black men in the south, but eventually they did apologise.

Living your values makes safer and stronger, but apparently those values involve living in a state of denial and I don’t see how that can make anyone stronger. I think it would make you far stronger to step up to the plate as a nation admit fully what had happened, no holds barred and then apologise for it, and then let the nation start the healing process. Saying that there will be no torture under your administration does not change the past, and failing the victims, and not letting their abuse and tortures be known, still hurts and I daresay tortures them on a psychological level, the same way not dealing with slavery affected the America psyche for years down the line.

Germany is in many ways just now starting to recover from their Hitler time and have pride and love again for what Germany was, I just saw and article about that and I think it’s good, because they have finally dealt with and acknowledged some of what happened during that time period. What would the world be like in America now if people denied Slavery happened or said that it was not that bad? Well many Americans are still psychologically grappling with the legacy that left behind and when people try to brush it under the carpet, some get upset and offended, well is denying or not fully confronting the events of the last several years any better? Isn’t it just as offensive to deny the extent to which torture happened? To try to brush it under the carpet?

I think America needs to heal for what happened, but I don’t think America will heal by underplaying and denying what when on, just like slavery or any of your other dark past, you have to find a way as a nation to step up to the plate, take ownership and acknowledge what happened,  then apologize and only then can you truly start to heal as a nation.

Most would like to forget what happened, but I don’t think that will make you stronger or better in the long run, it’s not a healing or a healthy mentality to have. After 9-11 you felt hurt, violated and so you lashed back, even though Iraq was not the enemy, you did what you thought would make you feel safe, but in the end violations were committed, grievous violations and to heal, that has to at some point in the American psyche has to be dealt with.

May 29, 2009 Posted by | 9/11, Abu Ghraib, Abuse, Active denial, Torture | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment